My spirits were so low this evening that I asked Ruhamah to be excused from my training. I knew only that I did not have the heart and that it would do me no good, but once I was excused I did not know what to do with myself. I went first to visit Brid, but she had a lesson with Perrine. Then I tried to find peace on the mountain, but Orison and Rumael were already there and at…
This morning I could bear the helplessness no longer, and I went to find Orison. He was in council with Salathiel, but perhaps they saw some of my desperation, for they broke off their conversation to give me their undivided attention. I was grateful for that, but not for their advice. “It is a bad idea,” Orison said bluntly when I had explained what I wanted to do. “To say nothing of the foolishness of looking for trouble, Asa’el—you know…
I remember when I was learning about the Fallen from Orison, I didn’t think much about Disasters. He described them as small creatures whose power is to use objects from nature to cause trouble. At the time I did not think that they rated their name. I was wrong. Everything is interconnected in this wonderful, maddening world that our Father created, and hatred when used with cunning is always dangerous. Thankfully I was with Freya this evening—she had something of…